Information, Conversations and the time I tried to learn Everything. (not in that order)
When I was in high school I did a lot of stupid things, but I feel like what I did when I was in 10th grade may have been the dumbest thing I ever did. Especially seeing how it's affected my life since then. So what did I do? I tried legitimately to learn everything I could about the Universe. Luckily for me the idea that I could become the most intelligent person in the world only lasted about an hour and a half. I blame 1997-1998 internet for that have you ever tried to use Yahoos internet directory for find things online no of course not because there are Search Engines now. God to think there are some people who will never know what an internet directory is and might try to make one again. That adventure did not last long I quickly realized what a fuckin' ridiculous task I set out on and gave up and looked for something else online... It was so long ago I don't even remember how I ever found anything on the internet.
As much as I wish it ended there, it didn't. I did not realize until a few days ago that I've been chasing that stupid idea ever since in a very indirect way. every time I sit down to watch TV, a movie, read a book or even when I'm just talking to a random person; I'm always looking for Information that i have yet to discover. I realized this when i was looking at some of my favorite things and realized that I'd only watched or read some of them once and then never picked them up again. I'd never picked them up again because if there was any information in them I'd already consumed it and didn't need it anymore. I also started to realize that my conversations with people where being treated the same way I would just listen to them talk and talk without much interest or care what they where talking about until if by chance they said something that I did not know about the Universe. it could be anything as long as they feed my thirst for knowledge i was happy... enough.
I also went looking threw my YouTube subscriptions and found that I followed a lot of channels that where filled with useless information videos about Math, Science, Maps, random Countries, more math, astronomy, sex (yeah I'll probably get as much use out of astronomy as this one) and much more. I'm now aware of how I seek more and more knowledge all the time but I'm not sure I want to stop. I probably should stop chasing such a wild and stupid dream, but at this point in my life I enjoy random facts more than I like people. So fuck it, if someone has nothing interesting to say i'll probably just forget everything they where blabbing on and on about... I should probably look into getting some information on grammar and spelling cause i know I have not learned any of that since high school.
"Knowledge is knowing that we cannot know."